Babies.
Babies,
babies, everywhere. Everywhere I look (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, etc.)
someone is announcing their pregnancy. Not that there's anything wrong with
this. I'm at that age where this is normal. Just like when I was 18 and all my
friends were going off to college - I'm now in my mid-to-almost late 20's
(ouch... that hurts so much to say) and all my friends are having babies.
Don't get me wrong. I LOVE babies. They're the cutest. I get SO SO SO excited
when one of my friends announces their pregnancy.
It's just that I am NOT anywhere near ready to have a baby. My husband feels the same way. We would rather wait until 1.) We know where we are going to be in the next couple of years, 2.) We want to be completely done with school, & 3.) We want to be financially READY - Loans paid off, house bought, etc. (Even though I always hear you're never financially ready...). And honestly, I like my Target trips alone. I like my sleep. I like doing things with just Jesse. And if that makes me selfish, then I'm sorry.
I feel like there's something wrong with us because of this. My family has it
in their head that we're never going to have kids.
However, why is it that whenever I see that someone else is pregnant, I feel like someone has kicked me in the stomach? I know that having a baby isn't a competition, but sometimes it really feels like it is. I have this fear that I'm going to wait so long that I'm going to be too old to even try and it's going to be a struggle.
Also, it's annoying that no matter how many times I say I am not ready, if someone sees me pin a bunch of baby stuff or post something on IG, it's all "OMG ARE YOU PREGNANT?" To which I say...
But right now, I am happy just living my life, just me and Jesse,
without worrying about another life. I mean I worry enough. When I have a
child, I'm going to have to be in a permanent self-medicated state or I will
drive myself insane from all the worrying (kidding. maybe).
So friends, I am totally open to watching your babies and loving
and kissing their sweet cheeks.
I'm just not ready for my own yet.
I don't even know why I'm talking about this. I just feel like
it's something that I've been dealing with and I know that other people feel
this way as well.
*LAST NOTE*
Don't ask
someone why they haven't had a baby yet. Just don't. You have no idea what that
person is going through. They could be trying all the time but have no luck.
Some people might have a condition where they can't have a baby. Just be
sensitive. Not nosy. That's all I'm saying.
xoxo.
Good post, that last note is so true. I have a friend who has been trying for seven years and since they already have a kid people assume they just dont want another. It hurts her I think when people keep asking so she just plays it off like she never wants another baby. Only God makes those little ones for us, they are all a very special gift. Another friend of mine could never have children but God brought her two precious ones to adopt. And I know another couple who cant have children and they live happily ever after just the two of them. :) God has his perfect way.
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Good post, that last note is so true. I have a friend who has been trying for seven years and since they already have a kid people assume they just dont want another. It hurts her I think when people keep asking so she just plays it off like she never wants another baby. Only God makes those little ones for us, they are all a very special gift. Another friend of mine could never have children but God brought her two precious ones to adopt. And I know another couple who cant have children and they live happily ever after just the two of them. :) God has his perfect way.
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Reading your blog today is exactly what I am thinking about babies, too. Media is pressuring us to have babies, even though we want to wait until WE are ready. But I know that gut-punch feeling… I always say, "These cute babies makes my ovaries hurt" haha
ReplyDeleteAmen! I literally just posted about this today. Great minds think alike ;)
ReplyDeleteI felt like this for soooo long- especially when I was in a relationship. We had a plan for how long we wanted to wait after getting married to start trying. But now that I'm 29 and single, my thoughts have changed. Maybe it's just a part of life, or a part of being a girl who is single and surrounded by everyone else starting a family. I'm not sure really, but in the end God will decide when the time is right - for both of us. And until then we will just love on our sweet fur babies!
ReplyDeleteWait! Wait until you're really. ready. There is no rush. You'll know when it's time.
ReplyDeleteI felt this way about people constantly asking me "When are you getting married?" (In which I would say, "when he asks me!" but I was really thinking "mind your own business") Like you and Jesse, Stephen and I had a plan for when we wanted to get married (when I finished grad school). We also had our plan for when we wanted to have children, but God had a different plan…and His plans are always good and perfect.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I'm going to be 30 in June and I'm just not ready yet.
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