Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Baby Talk.


Babies, babies, everywhere. Everywhere I look (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, etc.) someone is announcing their pregnancy. Not that there's anything wrong with this. I'm at that age where this is normal. Just like when I was 18 and all my friends were going off to college - I'm now in my mid-to-almost late 20's (ouch... that hurts so much to say) and all my friends are having babies. 

 Like Anna Kendrick tweeted yesterday...

Don't get me wrong. I LOVE babies. They're the cutest. I get SO SO SO excited when one of my friends announces their pregnancy. 

It's just that I am NOT anywhere near ready to have a baby. My husband feels the same way. We would rather wait until 1.) We know where we are going to be in the next couple of years, 2.) We want to be completely done with school, & 3.) We want to be financially READY - Loans paid off, house bought, etc. (Even though I always hear you're never financially ready...). And honestly, I like my Target trips alone. I like my sleep. I like doing things with just Jesse. And if that makes me selfish, then I'm sorry.

I feel like there's something wrong with us because of this. My family has it in their head that we're never going to have kids. 

However, why is it that whenever I see that someone else is pregnant, I feel like someone has kicked me in the stomach? I know that having a baby isn't a competition, but sometimes it really feels like it is. I have this fear that I'm going to wait so long that I'm going to be too old to even try and it's going to be a struggle.
Also, it's annoying that no matter how many times I say I am not ready, if someone sees me pin a bunch of baby stuff or post something on IG, it's all "OMG ARE YOU PREGNANT?" To which I say...

 But seriously. I feel like I should clarify. I DO WANT CHILDREN. Eventually. 

But right now, I am happy just living my life, just me and Jesse, without worrying about another life. I mean I worry enough. When I have a child, I'm going to have to be in a permanent self-medicated state or I will drive myself insane from all the worrying (kidding. maybe).

So friends, I am totally open to watching your babies and loving and kissing their sweet cheeks.
I'm just not ready for my own yet.

I don't even know why I'm talking about this. I just feel like it's something that I've been dealing with and I know that other people feel this way as well.

Don't ask someone why they haven't had a baby yet. Just don't. You have no idea what that person is going through. They could be trying all the time but have no luck. Some people might have a condition where they can't have a baby. Just be sensitive. Not nosy. That's all I'm saying.


Monday, March 17, 2014

Making Amends With Sundays.

Honesty Time: I hate Sundays. HATE. DESPISE. They're the worst. 
I would much rather deal with a Monday than a Sunday. 
Because I feel like my Sundays are spent dreading the week ahead and mourning the days that I just had off. I've also noticed I'm not the only person that feels this way. Maybe it's a teacher thing. ;)
This has been especially hard for me since I have class on Saturdays 2-3 times a month now.
Needless to say, I don't do the whole "Lazy Sunday" thing very well.

However, this past weekend I decided to try a positive way of thinking about Sundays.
I woke up Sunday morning pretty early and it was super rainy. There's been this coffee shop that opened up (Knoxville Brew) that I've been wanting to try, so we headed down there.
I'm so glad we did.

Seriously. I'm a coffee and french vanilla creamer kinda gal. I've never been much for the fancy drinks at Starbucks, mainly because they're super expensive/fattening/have a burnt taste to them. 
K Brew knocked it out of the park.
Jesse and I hung out there for about an hour or so, just enjoying the rain (I love the rain... I find it super relaxing!) and catching up on our books.

After we left there, we headed back home where I worked on crochet projects, cleaned, and worked on ZERO school work (which I'm totally regretting today... but I needed a break). We just hung out around the house and I tried my best to relax. I planned out our meals and made out my to-do list for the week. 
SO I actually do feel pretty productive and super prepared for this week! All in all, I actually had a really great day. 

Okay, Sundays. I think we can be friends again.

Hope y'all had a fantastic weekend! 


Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Just a thought...

Why do we feel the need to apologize for things that we post on OUR social media accounts? I mean - some people should be sorry for the things they post on Facebook and Twitter, but that's a whole 'nother story.

Anyway, last night I hashtagged #sorryforthecharlieoverload on my Instagram after posting the second picture of Charlie for the day. Then I thought... why do I feel the need to apologize for what I post on MY Instagram? If people don't like it - they don't have to follow me. I post a lot of pictures on Instagram because those are memories. I can't tell you how many times I've gone back and looked at my pictures and been like "aww that was so fun!" or "geez that was so long ago"... things like that. I've always been a picture person, but why is it that we feel the need to apologize for "overgramming"? I know that I'm not the only one that has apologized for "overgramming" - regardless of whether it's a dog, a baby, a vacation, a house being built - those are all SUCH exciting things that are important to someone.

So I guess what I'm saying is - don't apologize for what is important to YOU. If someone doesn't like the fact that I post a zillion pictures of my dog... then I'm sorry they're not a dog person.

That's just my random thought for the day!

What are your thoughts on "overgramming"? I'm interested in hearing other's opinions and thoughts!


Friday, February 28, 2014

Five on Friday!

I feel like the only time I blog is on Fridays. Forgive me, I've been a busy bee lately.

I have been so busy with crochet orders, I've hardly had time to work out/eat/shower. I know, gross but I'm so blessed with this growing business! I love to create things that make people happy. Here are a few of my custom orders I've sent out this week:

I am obsessed with these red canvas shoes I snagged at Target last night for $15. I wore them around my house last night and they are so stinkin' comfortable! I highly recommend everyone go get a pair. I think I might go back and check out the other colors!

I made chia seed pudding for the first time ever and I must say - I actually like it! It's sweet and perfect for warmer mornings when oatmeal might be too hot of a choice. I mixed it with a few strawberries and shredded coconut. It was delicious and super filling. It's actually a Giada recipe that can be found here.

Tomorrow is Mardi Growl in downtown Knoxville and we can't wait! We aren't participating in the parade, but we are going to take Charlie to Market Square and let him participate in the peanut butter eating contest. I think he has a good chance of winning. ;)

Easter candy + Girl Scout cookies are out so I'm doomed. Thankfully I haven't seen any girl scouts out yet but I have a feeling I'm going to run into some and they're going to make me buy like 5 boxes. I had my first small bag of mini Cadbury Eggs and yum... they just get better every single year.

Whew! Now I have to actually go get some things done! Orders to be mailed and delivered, homework, more orders... I'm actually looking forward to getting out and about this weekend! It's supposed to be super nice here in Tennessee so I'm definitely going to make the most out of it!


Monday, February 24, 2014

Currently: February Edition.

Listening. I have been listening to a little bit of everything! Mainly country of course, I am really loving Lorde's new album and the Will.I.Am featuring Miley song "Feelin' Myself". I also love Eric Church's new single he has out "Give Me Back My Hometown". I just love him.

Eating. I have been so awful lately! All I have been craving is McDonald's Chicken McNuggets and I can't even tell you the last time I ate those. Plus my sweet tooth has been out of control lately. Jesse and I tried this great new pie shop, Buttermilk Sky Pie, on Saturday and holy yum. So good. If you live in Knoxville and haven't tried it out yet, I highly recommend it the buttermilk pie. Sounds weird, but it's delicious.

Drinking. Water water water. I'm so sick of water I can't even deal. I cheated and had a Dr. Pepper during class last week and I didn't even regret it.

Reading. I just finished The Longest Ride by Nicholas Sparks and it was amazing. I love all of his books but I cried so many times throughout that one that I lost count. Now I'm reading The Glass Castle by Jeanette Walls. Jennifer Lawrence is apparently producing and starring in the film based on that book so I had to check it out!

Feeling. Pretty good! No complaints here! 

Weather. The weather here has been fantastic. I wish I could spend more time outside! Jesse and I went and drove around for a little while on Saturday after I got out of class. It was nice just to ride around with the windows down!

Wanting. A Flipped Bird Messenger Bag. I've been wanting to order one but I keep holding out for some reason! Maybe the $56 price tag but... It IS reversible. ;) You can find them here.

Watching. Nothing lately - we still have a few episodes left of House of Cards so we will probably try to finish those this week! 

Also --- I'm doing a giveaway over on my crochet page Oh So Darlin' on Facebook - Check it out and enter! :) Winner gets a custom coffee cozy! Here is the link: https://www.facebook.com/ohsodarlin

Hope y'all are doing fabulous!


Friday, February 14, 2014

Five on Friday!

Geez is it Friday already? I didn't even realize it was Friday until I looked at my calendar this morning. Someone has been in a fog all week!

So today is VALENTINE'S DAY! 
Valentine's Day is one of my favorite holidays.
I just love all the pink and red and hearts and love all around!
Jesse and I chose not to go out to a fancy dinner this year. It's always such a hassle, super expensive, and we leave and end up going through the Taco Bell drive through because we didn't get enough food (don't lie, we've all done it).

So this year we are staying in and eating Chinese and watching Netflix.
Nothing really different than our typical Friday night, but we're stepping it up a notch and will be eating on our fine china. Yes, our fine china that we have only opened up one time the whole almost 3 years we've been married. We're super fancy. Ha! We just love being silly with the whole thing. We went all out the first couple of years we were together, but now it's just fun.

We had crazy amounts of snow here on Wednesday night. I love looking at the snow, but I absolutely hate driving in it, playing in it, being out in it, period. Which is really difficult when you have a dog who absolutely LOVES it and whines at the door until you take him out to play.

Our peek out of our back porch yesterday morning.

Ayers Hall on Wednesday night. Our local news station posted this the other night and I just loved it so much. I love my alma mater! *Go Vols*

I have an obsession with mugs. Tea cups, coffee mugs, travel coffee cups... whatever. I love them all. Jesse told me he is putting me on coffee mug restriction, but that didn't stop him from buying me this gorgeous "With a Twist" tea cup from Anthropologie. Good job honey!

Like I said before, Jesse and I are starting to be silly with our Valentine's. I made him this card after I found a dime laying on the ground outside Target. It's a joke between us that whenever Jesse sees any kind of change on the ground... he's picking it up and putting it in his pocket. I'm the complete opposite. So he was surprised when I told him I found the dime on the ground. Plus he loved the little witty rap ;)

I just started this book the other night and I was bawling within the first 10 pages. Every Nicholas Sparks book makes me cry like a baby, but not that quickly! Can't wait to get through it. 

I went through some of our wedding pictures last night and I thought I would share this one. It's one of my favorites and it reminds me how much our wedding day was the best day of my life!

Well that's it for me! I have to finish up some crochet orders and get some school work done before we have our lazy Valentine's date tonight. How are you spending your Valentine's Day? Staying in/going out? Not celebrating at all? Regardless of your plans, I hope you all have a great weekend in whatever you do! :)

I'll leave you with a little Valentine's Day message from Charlie...


Tuesday, February 11, 2014

A Case of the Blahs

You know what I have?

You know what I'm talking about. We all get them, maybe some more than others, but right now that's what's going on with me. I just feel so... Blah. It's the only way I can explain it! Between this weather, school, my weight loss journey, and uncertainty about the future... I'm finding it hard to be positive. I think I just need some warm weather and sunshine in my life!

This graphic below accurately describes my life at this very moment:

Who is with me? I am always saying... I want routine. Then as soon as I'm in a routine, I hate it. I want to be spontaneous and fly by the seat of my pants. Then something goes wrong and I'm itching for routine again. It's such a vicious cycle. I promised myself that I would try to relax more and not get so stressed out about silly things... That was one of my many New Years Resolutions... Ha! :)

I am constantly saying... I am so over school. I want to be done so I can have my own classroom and my own career and salary. I'm tired of feeling like I don't contribute as much as I could (however, Jesse tells me I contribute plenty, but it sure doesn't feel that way). I am always trying to hurry up the future. I feel like my time is ticking. I'll be 27 this year and feel like I have absolutely NOTHING to show for it. Most of my friends already have a child, sometimes even 2. I know I shouldn't compare my life to someone else's but sometimes I feel like I'm going to be behind forever.

I know that I'm going to look back on these days when I'm overwhelmed with work, lesson plans, problems in my classroom... And think "why did I rush this? I would do anything to be back in school!" When I'm up at 2 am nursing my baby running on a couple hours of sleep, I'll think... "Geez I miss the days where I could sleep for 9 hours a night and think nothing of it". When we buy our first home I'll probably think... "Life was so much easier when we lived in our cute apartment".

If I KNOW these things, why am I rushing? God knows where I am and he has plans for me. This is something that I need to reflect on when I'm having a "case of the blahs". 

I saw this quote on Pinterest and it hit so close to home with me. "Our list for future comfort is the biggest thief of life." Wow. It is SO true. 

I'm going to work on spending more time living in the moment. I'm want to try to stop worrying about things I cannot change or control. What I am longing for WILL happen. I just need to keep reminding myself of that.